I like to think I’m a good friend. I’m not great at keeping staying in touch daily, weekly or even monthly with people, but I am ALWAYS around to pick up the phone if someone calls, or respond when someone messages. I may not be the initiator, but I am loyal and reliably ‘there’. IRead more
It felt like a 20 pound weight was resting on my chest, preventing me from doing anything, especially rest. I was not unfamiliar with the sleepless side-effect of constant worry, but this was different. It was also different from the stress of keeping myself busy to avoid feeling the emptiness. I tossed and turned inRead more
Context: My husband and I have tried for seven years of our adult lives to have babies. We fulfilled our dream of becoming parents six years ago, but have spent the past five years trying to give him a sibling. We have not succeeded and are walking away as a family of three. On thisRead more
Infertility can be a very scary and isolating place. I was – and still am – the only person in my group of friends to have visited this place. The eight of us have been friends since high school and over the years the friendships have changed and evolved as friendships normally do. But nothingRead more
I LOVE FALL! I love almost everything about it. The smell, the feeling of crispness in the air, the colours of changing leaves, and let’s not forget, all things pumpkin spice! For as long as I can remember, I have lived for this time of year and the beauty that comes with it. However, like anythingRead more
Triggers. We all have them regardless of our struggle. It could be a time of year, a moment, an event, a photo, a smell. I learned one of mine recently and believe it or not, it’s a word—just a stupid word! Let’s rewind back a couple months. D and I had some pretty big appointments.Read more
Recently, I bit the bullet and made an appointment with a psychologist who is trained in infertility-related counselling. At the time it felt like it was what I needed. I was struggling more emotionally, than I was used to and I was feeling a little lost in it all. She was absolutely amazing, down toRead more
Which is worse? Stepping on broken glass, or on burning coal? What about stubbing your baby toe on the coffee table, or getting a paper cut under your fingernail? Now, what about miscarrying at 6 weeks, or 12 weeks? Or how about if you’ve had 1 miscarriage, or 3? Have you tried to conceive forRead more
Sperm! Testes! Penis! Are you smiling a bit? I definitely giggled a little typing these words out like the mature adult that I am. These aren’t anatomy terms usually spoken about in everyday life, but they became game-changers for my husband and me. We also discovered that they aren’t spoken about too much in infertilityRead more
*Trigger Warning: This post involves discussion around natural pregnancy. Be well.* Lovelies, What emotion, besides grief, has been the most omnipresent one on my infertility journey? Guilt. I have dragged that heavy feeling around like it’s a secret talisman for the past 4+ years of TTC. It reared its ugly head early in theRead more