Hey Lovelies, Tonight is the International Wave of Light where the world pauses to acknowledge all those babies who have been lost through miscarriage, still birth, and in infancy. Miscarriage and pregnancy loss are terrifying and also terrifyingly common. Yet we, as a society, seem to think if we just don’t acknowledge it, it willRead more
The First I found out about our first miscarriage during a big meeting at work. The meeting involved our CEO and others of our leadership team, and as a 28 year old aspiring career gal, I was in ‘make a good impression’ mode. I had been having painful cramps for a few days, but thoughtRead more
It took me a lot of time to be able to sit down and write this blog. For the last 3 years, I have shared my journey through my personal social media – the good, the bad, and all that is in between. Aaron and I have been through a lot in that time andRead more
Infertility and miscarriage are cruel. You can spend years trying to get pregnant, seeking invasive treatments to finally conceive and then in the blink of an eye, it’s all over. So naturally you start again. You try and you try and spend thousands of dollars at the chance of conceiving once again. Early morning appointments,Read more
I love babies! I could talk about babies and my dreams of pregnancy and becoming a mom for hours. I have well thought out pregnancy announcements and gender reveal ideas, as well as a running list of baby names on my phone, and please, let’s not forget the Pinterest baby board I started the dayRead more
Happy Mother’s Day….. Three simple words that can either cause extreme happiness or utter and debilitating sadness. Such an innocent and kind thought shared yet it can cause a deep ache. The rational side of my brain knows that there is no malice when a stranger wishes you a happy Mother’s Day, it’s just somethingRead more
On July 4th, 2018 my phone rang. “CONGRATULATIONS! You’re pregnant! Your beta hCG test came back at 1043.” I’m sure the nurse thought I didn’t care, because I didn’t get excited. I didn’t cry, I didn’t get emotional, I just said thank you and asked what was next. The thing was, I had already known forRead more
“I must stop Christmas from coming…… but how?” The older I get, the more I find myself able to relate to the Grinch. Honestly, the poor guy just seems misunderstood. I mean, I can’t fault someone for just wanting a little peace and quiet during an otherwise INSANE time of year. I miss the naivetyRead more
I am afraid. I’m afraid that we won’t ever get pregnant again. I’m afraid that we will get pregnant, but we will lose the baby again. After a twin stillbirth and a molar pregnancy, my only experience with pregnancy is, well… not good. And so, I am afraid. As October is Pregnancy andRead more
There’s a room in my house, a room that may forever remain unused for its intended means. A room filled with hopes and dreams and things collected over the years. Treasured possessions from our childhood, saved with the hope of passing it on. Items purchased while we were blissfully ignorant of the “what ifs”, someRead more