Dear fertility patient in the waiting room, I’ve sat in that chair you’re sitting in with the same nervous but hopeful look. I feel the emotions you’re feeling and I hear the thoughts that you’re thinking. I know you’re probably wondering why this is happening to you. Why you were one of the chosen onesRead more
It all started one weekend in May 2019. Little did we know that a decision we would make on an impromptu weekend getaway would bring so much love, heartache, joy, sadness and fulfillment into our lives. My husband Dan and I had been trying to have a baby for almost nine years and were nearingRead more
Infertility is defined as a couple’s inability to conceive after 12 months of regularly unprotected intercourse and affects nearly 1 in 6 (15%) of couples in Canada. Male factor – an aspect related to the male partner – can contribute to a couple’s fertility problem in up to 50% of cases. Therefore, it is crucialRead more
Infertility and miscarriage are cruel. You can spend years trying to get pregnant, seeking invasive treatments to finally conceive and then in the blink of an eye, it’s all over. So naturally you start again. You try and you try and spend thousands of dollars at the chance of conceiving once again. Early morning appointments,Read more
As a child I grew accustomed to feeling ill when my worrying waged a war within my brain, and then, my body. With my first period, I actually thought it was my annual ‘first day of school’ gut-wrenching anxiety. A connection between my cycles & my concerns that would continue, and grow, more complicated for the nextRead more
It felt like a 20 pound weight was resting on my chest, preventing me from doing anything, especially rest. I was not unfamiliar with the sleepless side-effect of constant worry, but this was different. It was also different from the stress of keeping myself busy to avoid feeling the emptiness. I tossed and turned inRead more
I’ve tried writing this blog post a dozen times already. For six weeks, all I’ve had is the title – “When it’s over.” Those reading this blog are looking for inspiration, hope, insight, and compassion. I am not sure I can offer any of those things at this particular juncture in my life. We’ve completedRead more
When someone has had their ID physically or electronically stolen, there is often a feeling of being deeply violated. It’s a feeling that who we’ve built ourselves up to be has now been tainted by the misuse or abuse of our reputation, or good standing that we’ve worked so hard for. Sometimes infertility can giveRead more
I love babies! I could talk about babies and my dreams of pregnancy and becoming a mom for hours. I have well thought out pregnancy announcements and gender reveal ideas, as well as a running list of baby names on my phone, and please, let’s not forget the Pinterest baby board I started the dayRead more
At my fertility clinic, they put out large jigsaw puzzles in the waiting room. Once one is complete, they replace it with another. As patients drift in and out of the clinic, consumed with their own problems, they connect a few pieces here and there until it is time for their appointment. Eventually, the puzzleRead more