It took me a lot of time to be able to sit down and write this blog. For the last 3 years, I have shared my journey through my personal social media – the good, the bad, and all that is in between. Aaron and I have been through a lot in that time andRead more
As a child I grew accustomed to feeling ill when my worrying waged a war within my brain, and then, my body. With my first period, I actually thought it was my annual ‘first day of school’ gut-wrenching anxiety. A connection between my cycles & my concerns that would continue, and grow, more complicated for the nextRead more
It felt like a 20 pound weight was resting on my chest, preventing me from doing anything, especially rest. I was not unfamiliar with the sleepless side-effect of constant worry, but this was different. It was also different from the stress of keeping myself busy to avoid feeling the emptiness. I tossed and turned inRead more
I look down at the stick and see two pink lines. It’s early and I know how easily this can slip away. Six days post Day 5 transfer. I know this is really early, but I have never had a positive result this early on. Could this be the round that we make it toRead more
As if it’s not bad enough dealing with infertility, throw depression and anxiety in there. Now THIS can be a very dangerous combination! In my last blog, I wrote about triggers and avoiding them, and the scary part about the three ingredients listed above is that when you hide from your triggers, it becomes veryRead more
Ever since I can remember, I’ve been fearful. In addition to being fearful, I’ve been really good at worrying. Ever read the Peanuts Classic, My Anxieties Have Anxieties? Yeah. That’s me. A psychologist once told me that I have catastrophic thinking. I’d say that he was pretty accurate in telling me that. I lie awakeRead more