Lovelies, The air is changing. We wake up one morning and *snap*, just like that, the summer’s gone. There’s a chill that seeps in and reminds us that time is passing, and I can practically feel my biological clock—tick, tick, tick. I may feel it a bit more this fall because I am preparing toRead more
When my son started Junior Kindergarten two years ago, I had a really hard time. We were in the throes of fertility treatments, and it was just another milestone that reminded us that we hadn’t yet given him a sibling, despite years of trying. We walked him to the bus stop, and just like aRead more
It felt like a 20 pound weight was resting on my chest, preventing me from doing anything, especially rest. I was not unfamiliar with the sleepless side-effect of constant worry, but this was different. It was also different from the stress of keeping myself busy to avoid feeling the emptiness. I tossed and turned inRead more
I’ve tried writing this blog post a dozen times already. For six weeks, all I’ve had is the title – “When it’s over.” Those reading this blog are looking for inspiration, hope, insight, and compassion. I am not sure I can offer any of those things at this particular juncture in my life. We’ve completedRead more
When someone has had their ID physically or electronically stolen, there is often a feeling of being deeply violated. It’s a feeling that who we’ve built ourselves up to be has now been tainted by the misuse or abuse of our reputation, or good standing that we’ve worked so hard for. Sometimes infertility can giveRead more
I love babies! I could talk about babies and my dreams of pregnancy and becoming a mom for hours. I have well thought out pregnancy announcements and gender reveal ideas, as well as a running list of baby names on my phone, and please, let’s not forget the Pinterest baby board I started the dayRead more
At my fertility clinic, they put out large jigsaw puzzles in the waiting room. Once one is complete, they replace it with another. As patients drift in and out of the clinic, consumed with their own problems, they connect a few pieces here and there until it is time for their appointment. Eventually, the puzzleRead more
Having lived in Winnipeg 24 years—my whole adult life, one would think I’d have made peace with winter by now, but one would be wrong. Last year I was really confronted about my attitude towards Winterpeg when someone shared the perspective that I can refuse to find joy in the cold and snow but thenRead more
Context: My husband and I have tried for seven years of our adult lives to have babies. We fulfilled our dream of becoming parents six years ago, but have spent the past five years trying to give him a sibling. We have not succeeded and are walking away as a family of three. On thisRead more
When I started fertility treatments in an attempt to give my son a sibling, I was the ‘perfect patient.’ I trusted the professionals whose care I was under to guide me through the process. I let them lead the way and I was along for the ride. I deferred to them to make decisions aboutRead more