Deflated. We sat in Sandy’s the psychologist’s office sulking, hating the fact that we were even there. It had been an especially harrowing year of infertility. The clinics had slapped the diagnosis of PCOS but also said I don’t have all the typical symptoms. When it really came down to it, I was boxed asRead more
Hello Lovelies, Do you know what I really want for Christmas? I mean, besides the obvious *cough* baby *cough*… For Christmas I’d really like to love myself more completely. Yup, that’s it! It’s small and it doesn’t cost much but it’s incredibly powerful. If I could wake up Christmas morning and be filled with self-loveRead more
Anyone suffering from infertility knows how tough these dreaded questions can be. For me, I experience a lot more of the secondary fertility questions like “when are you going to have more kids?” I try so hard to be mindful and understanding that it is not intentional and often a conversation starter, after all, IRead more
Dear fertility patient in the waiting room, I’ve sat in that chair you’re sitting in with the same nervous but hopeful look. I feel the emotions you’re feeling and I hear the thoughts that you’re thinking. I know you’re probably wondering why this is happening to you. Why you were one of the chosen onesRead more
It all started one weekend in May 2019. Little did we know that a decision we would make on an impromptu weekend getaway would bring so much love, heartache, joy, sadness and fulfillment into our lives. My husband Dan and I had been trying to have a baby for almost nine years and were nearingRead more
Hey Lovelies, Tonight is the International Wave of Light where the world pauses to acknowledge all those babies who have been lost through miscarriage, still birth, and in infancy. Miscarriage and pregnancy loss are terrifying and also terrifyingly common. Yet we, as a society, seem to think if we just don’t acknowledge it, it willRead more
The First I found out about our first miscarriage during a big meeting at work. The meeting involved our CEO and others of our leadership team, and as a 28 year old aspiring career gal, I was in ‘make a good impression’ mode. I had been having painful cramps for a few days, but thoughtRead more
It took me a lot of time to be able to sit down and write this blog. For the last 3 years, I have shared my journey through my personal social media – the good, the bad, and all that is in between. Aaron and I have been through a lot in that time andRead more
Infertility is all about biology– eggs fertilizing, embryos dividing, and blastocysts implanting. We mortals can do nothing to ensure that actually happens– we can try and even solicit all these wonderful health professionals to help us, but in the end, it is out of our control. When it doesn’t happen and particularly when there areRead more
Dear friend, I have racked my brain trying to figure out how to ease your immeasurable pain. I could send food, but maybe having to cook every day is a distraction you need. I could send flowers, but they are sometimes more of a burden than a blessing. I could text you every day, butRead more