It all started one weekend in May 2019. Little did we know that a decision we would make on an impromptu weekend getaway would bring so much love, heartache, joy, sadness and fulfillment into our lives. My husband Dan and I had been trying to have a baby for almost nine years and were nearingRead more
Hey Lovelies, Tonight is the International Wave of Light where the world pauses to acknowledge all those babies who have been lost through miscarriage, still birth, and in infancy. Miscarriage and pregnancy loss are terrifying and also terrifyingly common. Yet we, as a society, seem to think if we just don’t acknowledge it, it willRead more
The First I found out about our first miscarriage during a big meeting at work. The meeting involved our CEO and others of our leadership team, and as a 28 year old aspiring career gal, I was in ‘make a good impression’ mode. I had been having painful cramps for a few days, but thoughtRead more
It took me a lot of time to be able to sit down and write this blog. For the last 3 years, I have shared my journey through my personal social media – the good, the bad, and all that is in between. Aaron and I have been through a lot in that time andRead more
Infertility is all about biology– eggs fertilizing, embryos dividing, and blastocysts implanting. We mortals can do nothing to ensure that actually happens– we can try and even solicit all these wonderful health professionals to help us, but in the end, it is out of our control. When it doesn’t happen and particularly when there areRead more
Dear friend, I have racked my brain trying to figure out how to ease your immeasurable pain. I could send food, but maybe having to cook every day is a distraction you need. I could send flowers, but they are sometimes more of a burden than a blessing. I could text you every day, butRead more
Four months ago, my husband and I made the decision to stop fertility treatments and move forward with our one and only child as a family of three. On the heels of five straight years of fertility treatments and yet another failed embryo transfer, we knew we couldn’t keep putting ourselves through the cycle ofRead more
Infertility and miscarriage are cruel. You can spend years trying to get pregnant, seeking invasive treatments to finally conceive and then in the blink of an eye, it’s all over. So naturally you start again. You try and you try and spend thousands of dollars at the chance of conceiving once again. Early morning appointments,Read more
As a child I grew accustomed to feeling ill when my worrying waged a war within my brain, and then, my body. With my first period, I actually thought it was my annual ‘first day of school’ gut-wrenching anxiety. A connection between my cycles & my concerns that would continue, and grow, more complicated for the nextRead more
Lovelies, The air is changing. We wake up one morning and *snap*, just like that, the summer’s gone. There’s a chill that seeps in and reminds us that time is passing, and I can practically feel my biological clock—tick, tick, tick. I may feel it a bit more this fall because I am preparing toRead more