Another unexpected journey! But a journey that I would be so grateful for and one that changed my life forever! Over two years of trying to conceive a beautiful and healthy baby, this journey started off with the dream and for a moment it was a reality. After our wedding in Thailand, we fell pregnant with our first baby. A while later I would experience my first miscarriage at home. This left me in a very undesirable state of physical, mental, emotional wellbeing, though I did not want to admit it. Months later I would take some time off from my responsibilities and focus on self-care or as I call it #selfcaredarebear and then this would serendipitously lead to yoga and my yoga teacher training that would set me on a path of Fertility Yoga and then I realized I was on a fertility journey and it was not going to be easy. A hard year of negative home pregnancy tests, ovulation kits and so many damn big fat negatives and a suspected chemical pregnancy. I would search for natural ways to conceive. I stumbled onto acupuncture. I had no idea how much of a blessing that was.
Over a year and a half after my first miscarriage, I would be referred to an OBGYN and begin tests and procedures to further investigate our recurrent pregnancy loss and fertility troubles. We then conceived another beautiful baby. Unfortunately, fate would claim that baby as well as we entered into this New Year. I believed that it was a new year and I can heal from this devastation. I challenged myself to find different ways to help heal from this tragic loss. Physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I call this challenge #darriens100daysofhealing
I didn’t know that I would conceive our miracle baby during my #100daysofhealing but I am so entirely grateful we did. I would experience a high risk pregnancy and learn that my father has lung cancer during this time. But I kept moving forward, with my support system and the tools that I have learned during my journey I stayed strong and resilient. I gave birth to my son Atlas and am now navigating the postpartum journey. Still growing and still being resilient.
Though my path to becoming a mother had been a heartbreaking time I have experienced greatness blossom from the darkness. I have learned so much about myself and where I want to go. I have become a certified Yoga instructor and focuses heavily on Yoga for Fertility. Created a local Fertility Support Group on Facebook and have many big dreams to bring that community together. With my thirst for more learning I have been studying and reading as much as I can about fertility and now I am a fertility coach! I believe that you deserve a shot at motherhood, I believe that you deserve the self care and self love you would wish for your miracle baby.
I see the opportunities and the hope that New Beginnings bring and I look forward to sharing with you and hearing about your personal journey with fertility.