In 2014 when Ryan and I first started trying to have a baby, my expectation was that I would be pregnant within six months. That didn’t happen. We tried for a year using ovulation kits and trying all of the “correct” positions. The reality was that each month our hearts would fall when I wouldRead more
Triggers. We all have them regardless of our struggle. It could be a time of year, a moment, an event, a photo, a smell. I learned one of mine recently and believe it or not, it’s a word—just a stupid word! Let’s rewind back a couple months. D and I had some pretty big appointments.Read more
There are many sides to infertility and that includes the marital side of this all. The stuff behind the scenes that no one really sees. The part this struggle plays in our day-to-day lives, at home, when no one else is around. The person who is always on the other side of the table atRead more
I’m a planner. I can’t lie— I don’t do well when plans change or I don’t know how something will work out. According to some, I might be labelled a “control freak”, but personally, I just like to call it being prepared. So when we were diagnosed with infertility, well, I was stunned. I neverRead more
Yesterday my husband and I faced another giant barrier on our journey to start a family and I was surprised by how hard it hit me. I guess no matter how prepared you feel for what comes, or how used to redefining your expectations you are, each setback hurts. Sometimes it seems like as soonRead more
Infertility can make even the strongest person feel like giving up at times. Exhaustion and uncertainty can creep in, making you question everything you’ve been working towards. Usually these feelings pass. But what happens when they don’t? How do you decide to stop fighting for something that you’ve wanted more than anything? Something you’ve spentRead more
Recently, I bit the bullet and made an appointment with a psychologist who is trained in infertility-related counselling. At the time it felt like it was what I needed. I was struggling more emotionally, than I was used to and I was feeling a little lost in it all. She was absolutely amazing, down toRead more
There are so many things that I want to share with you but it seems they are harder to say then I thought. I wish that I could better understand what you are going through. I wish I was able to be closer to you throughout this journey. I hope you know how much IRead more
Women are born with a set of immature eggs that they will have for their lifetime, which is approximately one million eggs. When a woman starts her menstrual cycle in adolescence, this number will decrease to approximately 400,000 eggs. These eggs will lay dormant in the ovary and every month one is chosen to finishRead more
Which is worse? Stepping on broken glass, or on burning coal? What about stubbing your baby toe on the coffee table, or getting a paper cut under your fingernail? Now, what about miscarrying at 6 weeks, or 12 weeks? Or how about if you’ve had 1 miscarriage, or 3? Have you tried to conceive forRead more
